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Wednesday, October 30, 2013

You have to be kidding me?

Does it bother me that my six month old angel has cried and screamed for two days straight whenever I have to put him down? Yes, yes it does.  But what is even more infuriating is that Dad comes home and suddenly he is fine.  Dad takes Gavin and lays him on the playmat and Gavin plays, for an hour, without being picked up!  Are you kidding me right now?!?

I feel like a horrible crap of a parent as I leave Gav screaming while I try and make dinner, do dishes, help Bryce with homework and get them both baths and ready for bed.  I'm up all night because suddenly Gavin doesn't want to sleep in his bed anymore and wants to be held throughout the night. And then Dad comes home and he's a perfect angel.  You've got to be kidding me!

Believe me I have heard it over and over from others how spoiled a baby he is.  That I hold him too much.  That he needs to cry it out so he realizes he can't be held all the time.  That I shouldn't pick him up again until he stops crying.  Are you kidding me?!?!  

This child does not cry it out.  He doesn't cry himself to sleep.  He doesn't calm down when I lay a hand on his belly or back.  And do not ask me if I have done it long enough or waited enough time.  Are you kidding me?!? Yes I have waited.  Yes! Yes! Yes!  Do I seem like I am the type of person who just gives in?? 

I don't fold over easy.  But this is a 6 month old child we are talking about here.  Crying for longer than 30 minutes is beyond excessive to me.  It isn't killing me to pick him up and let him know he's not abandoned or unloved.  I'm not training him, this is my child.  My child will know he is loved.

Do I think my way is right?? Well I think it's right for me.  It's right for my kids.  Bryce is not Gavin and Gavin is not Bryce.  But they both know they are loved and I hope that's because I adjusted to their personalities, even as babies to let them know they are loved. 

So far Bryce is amazing child.  I constantly hear how well behaved he is.  He's not perfect. But he's loved. And that makes him happy which leads to him having good character.  If it worked for Bryce then let's hope it works for Gavin. 

Monday, October 21, 2013

Time

Time changes everything.  I'm going to guess its what we experience in that time that changes everything.  So is it time or experience?

Gavin is almost 6 months old.  And I'm still breastfeeding.  I hate it and love it.  Some days I feel like I am just a food source.  When he's with Clint he plays. With me he is always trying to eat.  It drives me a little insane at times.  But time has made me love it.  It's a bond no one else has with him.  I'm pretty sure it's depleted my brain somehow though. 

He seems so alert all the time.  And he constantly kicks.  He likes to be held but not cuddled.
He loves the bath.  He has since the day he was born.  He even sits in the bathroom when Bryce takes a bath because he loves the sound of the running water.